I do feel like I am juggling chainsaws, went to church this morning met the W and kids in the parking lot. S5 wanted to attend service with Daddy, the little trooper sat through a 1 1/2 service and did so good. W did not join us, she was servicing at the church and was in D3's room. W had to go grocery shopping so I took the kids for a quick lunch.
She met with us afterward and brought me my favorite sushi roll from the store(act of kindness). Kinda surprised me, especially since her mood today was anger, non talkative and moody. I did not let it effect me one bit. I was happy playful with the kids, dressed nice and smellin good.
THe kids said they wanted to go home with me and I told them they could stay with me on Tuesday night. W quickly said why not Wed? I said isnt our first hearing thursday? she said "ya" I said do you remember what time? she said I have to look at the paperwork. I said Wed should work fine for me. I shut the car door and waled back to my truck.
The last time I saw her this moody, I cant even remember, but it was during our first S, where she acted the most like this. I did post some fun stuff on FB last night about my upcoming trip to CA for my 20th reunion! I had a ton of people, men and women both psoting on there how much they look forward to seeing me, even some HS ex's. W has been checking my FB lately, maybe that got to her. But here I am mind reading, and it does me no good.
She made a comment about how I have "fixed" some financial issues since we split, I said I am focused better now. She rolled her eyes nad carried on.
I start to think about this, W is showing me all the things i dont like about her, and it makes it easier. Like many here, my W still has her own issues to deal with. She obviously detached first, but it does not appear she is dealing with her issues. Nothing I can do about it though.
