Not sure where to start or end, WAW - #2

[john28]

What's the worst that would have happened?

I could have an emo moment, said something wrong not to my W's liking, and remain thus inconsistent w/ my W, who wishes to see consistency. I'm going on a few days of happy good John, just trying to avoid damaging the R anymore before Retrovaille next Friday.

You have to understand where my headspace is now. I'm not 100% detached. I don't like playing happy family, then going 1 day later to lawyers for mediation. It is too much of a rollercoaster for me now and I will not put myself in that position until I'm emotionally ready to handle it.