Sorry to hear about the encounter. I'm sure you have already seen that you're reactions so far have been "understandable" but, in the end, fruitless and did more damage to YOU than anyone else.
I'm not going to tell you it didn't hurt when I found out about the OM or the lies.
Howvere, I am going to tell you that it hurt a lot less and my head was a lot clearer (for things like your lawyer appointment Tuesday) when I focused on MY reactions and my actions GOING FORWARD rather than HER actions.
Again, she is doing what she is going to do. We don't have to agree with it but we have to accept that we can't control anyone else.
However, it now also illustrates that we have to be VERY aware of how WE let others control/influence us. And insure that we are acting on our own in response to what WE want or need as opposed IN REACTION TO someone else.
I wish I had more time this mornng but I'll check back later.
I think I'll be visting a doctor today aboy my D2's cough. It was a LLOONNGG night.
Hang in there, Faith. Calm down. Try to be VERY STILL and be DARK.
Think about how you reacted and how you allowed anger AT HER to reflect poorly on you. Be untimately concerned WITH YOU.
W're talking about your health; your safety; your future.
Be very careful! The less you do at this stage, the better. Until the anger disspates and you are thinking of ACTING for you, (again, as opposed to REACTING), the better off you will be.
I hurt bad. I'm not going to sugarcoat it.
I'm just trying to get my feelings under control right now. I'm so angry at the lies, it makes me sick to my stomach. Just wasted energy though and I'm hoping it comes under control faster than when my original sitch began. I'm thinking it should since it's true closure now. No more need to mind read because I have the truth now.
I do still wonder why she felt the need to lie and deceive. Our relationship although not perfect was never built on lies. Just all of a sudden she turned into this other person. Regardless of the things I did wrong, my morals would not allow me to deny her the truth.
I'm sick of being angry, sad, and pain that makes me cry.
