Gah. I know you are right. It's just too much. I lose a lot of money if I rock the boat, and he knows this. I don't know why I tell him anything. I don't know why i can't keep my mouth shut other than i can't take the arguing over money and the kids. I didn't want to go to court and he will take me. I can't afford it. I can't really afford a lawyer. He's doing everything he can for me' now but i can't pay for a divorce.

I'm scared he will reall screw me' financially if we do go to court. I guess I'll be losing my home and putting myself into dire straights financially but it will save my spirit, right?


Me 30 H 29
DC 9, 7, 2
M 4 years, T 6 years
ILYBINILWY Bomb: 8/8/10
He doesn't want to work, I'm slowly getting there too
Physically separating end of September