Quick break from work! It is a beautiful day here!
I worked at my second job last night, salon today and then I am on vacation, woot woot for the next week! Lots of cleaning out, organizing, donating and dumping planned! I might take a cue from punkin and relax a little while reading a good book too!
Hope everyone else has a wonderful weekend!
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You do not seek the answer to a question. Nor do you require the solution to a problem. You have this already. It is just that, in a funny sort of a way, you rather wish that you didn't have it. You would like the truth to be different. You would prefer not to know what you know - or not to have to do what you now have to do. But the longer you prevaricate, the harder it will be to make your move. Trust the understanding that you have recently reached and then act bravely. You may not like the idea of what's happening but the reality of it will yet prove much more positive and acceptable than you imagine.
SA...thankyou! I hope you have a great week ahead!!!
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I don't want to wait, For our lives to be over, I want to know right now, What will it be? I don't want to wait, For our lives to be over, Will it be yes or will it be...Sorry
Just heard this song on the radio...this is where I am right now...IMPATIENT!!!
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I think one of the hardest things to accept about all this is the length of time it takes for our S's to complete their journey. Add to that that there are no guarantees that your M will be restored and it can all get overwhelming to think about.
It's all in your perception, you can take this time and view it as a curse or a gift. It can be used however you see fit.
One of the uses might be looking at your M and owning your part in it's downfall. You can change those aspects if you so desire.
You can use it to do some of those things that you didn't have the chance to because you were busy doing for H and/or kids. Now you have the time to explore those interests. Those things also make you more interesting.
All of the things we do with this time are prepping us for one of two eventualities. It will make us stronger in the event that our S doesn't come home. It will give us the confidence we need to move on knowing that we will be just fine.
It will also make us stronger in the event that our S decides to come home and we decide to let them. This is where we'll really need the strength. Our S will return even more broken than when they left. Our strength, courage and patience will really be tested then as we'll sometimes have to have enough for both of us.
This time is a gift from God. It is in His time that this will resolve itself. He knows how long this is going to take until He feels we're ready to handle the answer whatever that may be.
It's all up to you in how you want view this gift and what you'll do with it.
Well, my strength, courage and patience just got tested big time and I failed miserably...pretty sure it is time re-evaluate why in the hell I am standing for my M and if this SOB is truly worth standing for....
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Who says we don't get to be weak occasionally. Who says we can't lose it and have to twist in the wind through this whole debacle? A little "sick & tired & not gonna do it anymore" just makes you human. You haven't failed anything.
