As in Edgar Allen Poe's "Tell Tale Heart", I figured that if I had an A why couldn't she? I had extremely low self esteem, remember 285 lbs and I am with a young attractive physically fit woman. When I had the A my W's friend told her that she was attractive enough to find OM (what wife said to me) so the death spiral had begun starting with my A in June 08.
As I said in other posts I use to say "when you leave me I have OW as my plan B" a joke, but probably seen as a veiled threat in my W's view. In fact peeling back my stupity I am sure it was. I use to tease and ask her if she had OM? Again teasing, but checking on my part. It is amazing as I said how I saw the train wreck coming and I was too blind to stop it.
When I noticed her looking for apt. in October I should have cleaned up my act back then and worked on improving our M and myself. When she left there not OM, but I drover her out of our M and to a WAW.
I am sure the fog is the reason for the lack of commnication. Or that it is simply easier to sweep this under the rug as she swept my A under the rug until one day she exploded. I think I will not validate her WAW and NC and just wait till she comes to me...no acknowledging her b-day.
