You know I had spyware put on my computer last Sept/Oct not because of anything she did it was due to my own paranoia. I never saw anything regarding OM, but that is when I noticed that she was looking for and apartment everytime we would have a fight, again caused by me usually (jealousy/paranoia).
So, I had her pw for both her work email and job email. I still have access to her job email and she has kept all of my emails that I have sent her before all this WAW started as well as now. She even opened the email that I sent last Friday regarding her mail after she had collected it.
Again, she is very sentimental (I know that some on this site will say that she could use the emails as a stalking defense, but there is nothing increminating in them (no veiled threats and the like)). And your right, I am speculating she is a nurse and she told me that there will be times when she would have to work evenings and weekends. Since she is new and this is the 1st holiday since she started she might have got stuck working this holiday weekend. And I think this site also tells you who viewed your profile and I have not looked in 5 or 6 days.
It is just driving me crazy with the lack of communication (cruel and inhumane). But even if there was an OM now in the picture it does not mean that I am out of the fight. We do have history together...and all the OM has is a profile that says "Never Married", let her explain that if there is OM and I confront it!
I really do not know what to think with the lack of communication...is she afraid of me? is she avoiding the sitch? she still loves me, but confused and afraid that I would influence her to come back? Maybe if there is OM this would give her the confidence or comfort to talk to me. I think I will forget the b-day email. I don't want to reward her for putting me through this purgatory. I know I hurt her with the A, but she internalized and allowed it fester and to blow-up 2 yrs later.
