MLC 5 years on

[Sanderika]

Hello,

I too have been at this now for over 5 years as you can see by my signature. I have had to endure things from my H I would have never thought possible.

My H began this journey and literally hated me and everything around and about me. This 5 years has brought on many changes in our relationship. My H now says that he does love me, likes me, enjoys my company, respects me and still finds me physically attractive. HOWEVER, he cannot return to our marriage and family. He is under the belief that "it just won't work" SO, he has once again initiated a divorce. I was served by a process server yesterday. My H has filed for a divorce against me twice now inside of 24 months.

I too love him very very much and my love for him is unconditional. unfortunately for us my H does not have the same feelings for me...I do not believe that he will ever be able to come out of this. I do believe that he is making a mistake and will in time have serious guilt and regret. It will be interesting to watch how he handles his life from now on.

I too have spent much time and effort and sacrifice on my marriage and my H over the past 5 years. I have learned that my patience, kindness and unconditional love has in fact re-created our friendship. Friendship is all I will be able to have with him now....it hurts a lot. I of course am once again devastated by his actions yesterday. I am grateful at the same time to have experienced personal growth and the opportunity to see his "human" side. My H is a great guy who is simply lost.

I have hope, I have spent the past 16 hours in deep thought. I have decided that my H wants his freedom from the marriage and family. I have decided that I must let him go.....