Wife filed for divorce...Is there still hope?

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I just found e-mails when W and I were dating, and it just made me cry so much. I just can't figure out where it all went so wrong. It is just so sad.

D was so emotional about everything when they came home tonight. I felt so bad for her. She is having a hard time going back and forth.

W and I are having a hard time communicating, and it ends in a fight about child custody. How do I handle this properly and better than I have? It is just so hard. I have had huge feelings of loss today. She took all the pictures from the house, and I am just so sad because i did not get to choose the ones I wanted.

I am excited about my job, and it will be great with the kids in school to have something to occupy my time.

I hope I will do well for the company. I had to tell them that I had a kids medical appointment, so I could be there for S's first day of Kindergarten. I would not miss it for the world. It is too important to me. The company understood. I am so happy to be working with even low pay.

I like the boss and the people there too.

It is a very relaxed atmosphere to work in.

I am having a hard time sleeping.

Oh W I guess is not taking anything, so I have to move all this stuff. It is going to be difficult. I will sell somethings I guess. The bed I do not want because it brings back to many memories, and it will not fit in the new place. It is sad because it is a really nice bed.

I am just so sad, and I hope the pain will lessen over time.

I have to be strong, but I just have not felt very strong lately.

It has been a busy week, and I took some time off from here to just have my own thoughts for a couple of days. I just feel so bad for everyone here. There is so much sadness,and I could not handle to see that for a while.