Good points TH, I do know that I did not make her feel special. I am a good provider, father and bascially have my sh!t together somewhat, but that does not mean I did everything a good husband should do. But again I cannot, in the present situation make her feel special now. It would be looked at as pursueing which cannot be done at this point. Maybe this was the breaking point and there is no looing back now. The only way I can make her feel special is "if" she ever starts coming back around.
