IB, first of all, you are still being way too hard on yourself. You are going to be sad for sometime. It's ok.
But, there are ways to conbat that a bit. One of them is for you to start really GAL. What are you doing just for you?What new things do you have planned to accomplish or try.
The other thing is, and I know this is a natural thing to do, I did it too, but you are still spending time trying to figure him out.
And you cant. Its impossible. So why do it? Who cares if he wants to be alone or not. Not you, because you are living your life, right?
Now its time to start putting some goals out.
Get to gettin', my friend.
And please gently let your children know that you dont really want the info about their father. It serves no purpose.
