Have this lingering feeling that I'm wasting my time. I wrote down all the advances from a year ago and there were lots however, it also reminded me of all the uncaring and thoughtless behaviours of a year ago and I wonder why I would bother with such a mean person. These behaviours were interspersed with some caring actions that kept me hanging on. In December we embarked on 6 months of no contact including some nasty interactions from H over the legal aspects. Now there is peace but I wonder when the bubble will burst once again. I wonder if this is the genuine H I am now seeing. I wonder if I am just really, really gullible.
As I re-read this it seems too negative but I have to acknowledge my feelings. this has been an incredibly long and painful journey and I don't need anymore pain. The only person who really knows what's going on is H and does he???
