My New LBS Reality

[irishblessings]

Friday night - home alone - but ok. My D and her boyfriend called me and asked if I wanted to come to dinner with them. Very nice - didn't feel like third wheel.

H texted me - said "oh by the way, I gave S $100 for sunday bb games" - WHAT???? Do I text him when I pay for groceries, S's gas, food, lunch money, date money, clothes, etc.? Umm NO! But rather than poke the tiger - I replied, "Yes he told me, thx"

My close friend who is my strongest support says - why don't you just finally go off on him? She thinks these are all games. I feel as if I don't really care if they are games or not - I am not an engager - nor am I a doormat. I just don't thrive in conflict and I typically am able to see people's meanness or anger/frustration as a reaction to their own pain. I can usually separate myself from that. I really am comfortable with this side of me. It's not that I don't get hurt - obviously I do - but I've never been the type who can lash out with my own pain and hurt someone else. When I made the phone call to the chat line and left H a sarcastic message - I was so disappointed in myself for letting myself become like that. I want to get through this situation proud of myself.

Hope all have a great weekend! If you are on this board then you DEFINITELY deserve it:)