Stamina with hope

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I was so tired last night...How tired was she????
I was so tired I was in bed by 10pm. I heard H come home, later he walked in asked if I was okay. I said yes. He said he looked all over outside for me because the lights were on in the barn, the dogs were out, he thought maybe the livestock got out and I was trying to find them in the cornfield. The house was dark but he came in to look for me, and I was in bed!

My nephews little girl is one of my 'leadliners' at the horse show. She does well and has won her class all 3 times she has shown. Nephews W likes horses and has come riding a few times also. Tonight I get a txt from her that she really appreciates my horses now because she went riding with a high school friend and those horses weren't so good. So, guess where she went to ride with her friend? Well?? did you guess yet?? ow's place! yes, her friend boards her horses at ows place.

Most likely no one else makes the connection. I know I shouldn't say anything, my family has never been told about the hell I've been thru the last 7 years. In fact, in one more week is the 7 year anniversary of when I noticed the light switch change in H.

H does know that nieceinlaw was thinking about getting a horse that was kept at ows. When I asked his advice on the horse he knew the horse well and advised against it.

Venting here, I know that spouting off and filling in nieceinlaw about ow would not help anything except me short term. Nothing about this has been short term so no sense seeking short term satisfaction now!