I don't know. I am trying to be honest with myself without beating myself up. I know I felt uneasy being with a young attractive in shape woman and me being 285 lbs. Outside opinions said that she would leave me 2 yrs ago and robx hit the nail on the head when he said that my A was about finding the OW before my W found the OM. Also, narcissistic behavior played a part in the thrill of the catch with the additional attention and all. So is it low self-esteem or narcissistic behavior? I am still working these issues out with my IC.
