Trying to look ahead and/or focus on everything at once will send you downward fast.
Lala, this is tough stuff. You are going to have your good and bad days. You are going to have those days where you feel strong and you are going to have those days where you are down.
I sense, you are looking for a way out of all this at times. Not out of your marriage but away from the pain and all the difficult sh!t that comes along with this situation. A way to make things easier or a way to put a stop to all of this.
The only way out of it is through it. You get to decide and perhaps benefit from how.
