I have been a busy girl and MIA around here I guess!
Hmmmm....what's new in my world?
Well.... the past week was an absolute roller coaster with D14. She had trouble adjusting to the new school, missed her old friends like crazy, and cried mountains of dramatic teenage tears begging and pleading with me to let her go back to her old school. So, I had to find that balancing act we parents do between being supportive and firm.
The good thing is her Dad backed me up, and between the two of us we seem to have finally convinced her to stay at the new school.
There is actually progress with H. We are getting along fine for a separated couple I suppose. I think that (typical of WAS fog) he hadn't really thought through what it would be like to see all my clothes, personal items etc gone. It hit him hard. He has cried a few times in the past week. In over 20 years with this man I rarely saw him cry.
He has been honest that he has "wavered" about whether this is the right choice. I have told him that doesn't matter any more. I am no longer "wavering". He was not willing to do what I needed him to do to heal from the A and rebuild trust. He has given me no indication he would be willing to do that now.
It's sad that a WAS sometimes sees these things in hindsight when it can be too late for the LBS.
But, for the most part... I am doing well. I can see hope for my future. My PMA is good. I have waves of sadness still at times, and the pain, hurt, anger sometimes still pops up when I think about everything that has happened. But, it's not as intense and passes more quickly.
Overall, life is good. Life is a gift and I plan on embracing that gift as much as possible.
