wonderful marriage hits midlife crisis

[TAMF]

Albuquerque - You and I must be married to the same man - unfortunately Sad truth is...my H and I are best friends. We have literally grown up together. We have been a couple since high school. We have this kind of comfort and ease with each other, that even with everything we are going through, we still have. It is natural and feels "right" when we talk to each other. I think that is why this is so damn confusing. Not only for me but for our Ds too. They don't understand because we don't ever fight. We laugh and tease, joke around or we are just quiet and comfortable in each others company.

We also have a physical attraction that is tough to fight. We took the girls boating and while he was on the boat (looking through my text messages on my cell) I was in the water on a raft. My D12 came swimming out to me and said, "Dad keeps staring at you Mom! He can't keep his eyes off of you. Seriously mom I am not making it up." I know she wasn't making it up, I could see him looking too. Trust me when I say that I can look at him with one glance and I see the physical proof that he wants me. When I glance down and then look at him questioningly - he says his normal response, "sex was never our problem. You are hot, and I want you. But that is all it is - just sex."

So I ask him...I am your best friend that you want to have sex with? Geez, what a HORRIBLE situation to be in. He just shakes his head and says that there is "something missing".

Then he texts the OW.

I don't know - this rollercoaster ride is just ridiculous.