Journaling

Oh gosh I would love to get of this rollercoaster ride. All week I was irritated because the stbexw kept calling me. This morning I wake up and wish that she would call me. I guess its normal I will go for 4 or 5 days where I feel good know my life is going to be ok after the D is final. And other times like today I would give anything to piece my life back together. I guess this is why we call it the roller coaster ride.
Last night was Thursday night visitation I had all three boys, D10 had cheerleading practice and her mom took her to buy some last minute things she needed before there first pee wee football game this Saturday, so it was late around 9:00 before I took the boys home. When I left S7 ask me where I was going, and I told him to ride my bike to get a little exercise before I went home. S7 wanted to go and I told him it was too late he needed to get ready for bed. S7 asked his mom if he could go and she told him yes, so I think I learned a valuable lesson about my relationship with the stbex last night, right now what ever I want she will want the exact opposite of. I have been noticing this for a few weeks but last night I started thinking I could use this to my advantage.
The stbex is making sure to keep our children informed of her love life. Last night while riding our bikes S7 informed me that mom had told him that the week they were with me she had three dates, and she was scared that no one was going to ask her out because she had 4 kids. I am not going to bust my brains trying to figure out why she is feeding my kids this stuff, but my gut feeling is so they will tell me and make me jealous. What ever her reason for sharing this with my kids it sure doesn’t seem like a very smart thing to tell your kids when your divorce is not final and you are in a custody fight. This type of behavior is exactly the opposite from what my lawyer told me to act.
Its taken 3 months but I finally broke the code of the true meaning of “were going to be best friends after divorce” really means. What the stbexw really mint to say was If you lay down and roll up in a fetal position and let me kick you every time I want to I will bless your life by talking to you and using you every time I need something from you. I have your number don’t call me I will call you.
Sadly this is not working very well for her!


M40, W 37
M 11 1/2 y
T 13 y
D filed 5-18-10
S 5-29-10 OM1 discovered 6-5-10
Counter sued for d 6-16-10
OM2 discovered 8-10-10
OM3, OM4
4 kids 10, 7, & 3
D date 10-14-10
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