Thank you Punkin and Eric. D day (again) 7 months ago. Asked him not to come home. Clearly in deep MLC. We have not talked about D in about 5 months plus. I don't KNOW anything about what he is doing, who he is seeing because I don't investigate but he still has questionable behavior (but he acts so weird anyway who knows). Today's text was about some paperwork/car title information but also was friendly, asked how I was, if I was going to a social event this weekend that he is going to.
He hasn't moved himself any further from me, but also nothing is improving and I'm moving toward D, so feel best very dim. Not sure about dark. I know it makes me saner to avoid him, but it also still feels like I'm punishing him, but that's not my motivation. I understand the difference. I feel that 1) it will protect me and 2) as long as he still has access to me, why SHOULD anything change. Also, feel like he needs to be aware of reality, which is I'm headed for the door if changes and progress don't happen. It is important to me that I be honest with him about that, without preaching it or "posturing".
THANK YOU AGAIN
M--14 years T--20 years, HS sweethearts dday #1--2002 EA dday #2--2005 bar sl*t dday #3/4--Feb 2010 texting/cell/physical/who knows what Shortly after found out he had been injecting steroids for 2 years