Honestly IMO...you are at a crossroads...a breakthrough if you will...
Keep digging...bring out some of those past hurts and start to ask yourself why. Not for your H but for YOU.
IB - many will tell you how tough this is. Many will claim to do the work. IMO...many will stay angry, many will stay stuck. I believe that you will thrive and find a lot out about yourself if you really take this time to find it.
IB - you have mentioned being neglected as a child. How do you think that effected your M? How did it effect you? I can tell you how neglected effect me as a child (if you want to know go read my thread)....keep digging IB...
Have a great weekend.
Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans