My walk away wife story

[40andsadintexas]

Journaling

Yea I have made it to almost 3:00 with out the stbex calling me today. Being dark is so much easier, and I feel so much better when I put distance between us, and yet I have to walk a fine line because from about mid August she is letting me see my kids pretty much when I want. All through June and July she would not let me see them except every other weekend I thought that was going to kill me. Then almost overnight she started letting them call me, take them bike riding, letting them spend the night on her nights, if she would have acted like this from the start I probably would have never had the cohonies to counter sue her and fight for my rights as a parent, so I guess I should be grateful to her for giving me the will to do the right thing. I have zero regrets about fighting for my kids; I just wish we could get it over with, with a good ending for my kids and my self.
The stbex telling D10 that I am out drinking and hanging with loose women really bothers me, I have always been very conservative even before I was married no one would have considered me a player. My kids do not deserve to be put in the middle of this. From the minute I found out stbex was having an affair I made the decision that I would never lie to my kids to cover up for her, but I would not go out of my way to tell them what she is doing. Turns out I didn’t have to tell my kids anything she chooses to involve them in her crap. Yes I have been on a few dates, I have went and had a few beers with my best friend since the first grade, and yes I have done some things that I am not proud of since the D bomb hit but I have made and effort to keep all of this out of my kids lives. She should remember that had she not filed for divorce none of this would be happening, divorce may actually be the best solution for us but don’t lie to my kids and tell them your suspensions as fact.