Grit, I get ya! I've spent the last week (albeit a bit distracted) thinking about me and where I am with my issues as just Lala.
I can proudly say that I have dominated the self confidence issue. I am feeling pretty good about myself and I know that it goes way beyond my tan and rockin' hair!
I have found comfort in my intelligence. This translates to how people view me regardless of my 'job', and it translates into the impact I make as a friend. I know that I embody notes of grace, humor, intellect, and most importantly love. I enjoy giving and receiving all of those things.
The biggest 'issue' that remains is isolation. I think all stay at home moms encounter this issue and most have someone coming home to them at the end of the day which somewhat combats that isolation. Being separated from H leaves me with a double whammy of isolation during the day AND night. Yes, I can get out and do things during the week, but the bottom line is that a lot of me getting out for me requires spending money. In order to respect our financial situation, and also to respect my need for human interaction and brain stimulation, I want to pursue working more. Even if its not in my old accounting career, I am more than happy to spin some extra tunes at the salon and love on people and their hair! So I am going to pursue more working opportunities for myself going forward.
