I guess journaling is therapuetic. Her silence is driving me crazy. I know the A was 2 yrs ago and I know that I deeply hurt her, but I never saw her pull away from me. We had many good times within these last two years. I helped her get her RN license and she never wanted for nothing.
I cannot believe that she can just stop communication all together. Part of me says that I am wasting my time and the other part says to hold on because we did have something good together. There has been no legal action so maybe she is just totally confused and not sure what to do. My IC, which is my W's IC (not sure if W is still seeing her) thinks that she is still in love with me and afraid that I would influence her in coming back when she is not ready.
I realize that if we do get back together that the M would have to be totally different than the past M and that I have to be the one to change it.
