Not sure where to start, or end. WAW?

[john28]

Reflecting, I think I went TOO dark. I changed gears from 1st to reverse, rather than 1st to 2nd. I went from always available John to cold-distant dark John.

I probably could have acted better on the phone. I gave monosyllable answers to everything. I could have seemed more chipper. But, I was dark not to manipulate her, but I was dark because I really honestly wanted the space and calmness. She was upset and crying because, "I always thought we would be friends and now you don't even want that. I can't understand how you go to always returning my calls to not talking to me at all, even when I call you. It just makes me really sad to lose you as a friend."

What does that say?

In my sitch I think there is a fine line between dark and not-pursuing and being available to her 24/7.