Wow, lots of differing views! After reading them all I think I've just got to let things be and let time sort things out a little more. I now see and agree that my prior "apologies" were actually nothing more than veiled defenses and excuses. I am ready to own up and take responsinbility for my actions. I know what I did was wrong and I am ashamed of myself and suffering deeply for it. But I do not believe my wife is ready to hear it or even wants to hear it (and perhaps may never be ready or ever want to hear it). I think I have to agree with bustorama and other similar posts that any type of owning up/apology will simply be viewed as whining/desperation and about me, me, me. I have to let her go. The only other question I have then is, is it possible to let go and move on but still hold on to hope and keep an eye out for that open window? Seems to me if you are still holding on to hope you are not truly trying to move on. Me 46 W 43 Married 15.5 years Together 16 years Son 15 Son 9 Dam broke November '09 Seperated December '09 W filed February '10
