Sunny, forget the squirrel. Squirells are jittery and if you watch them they run to and fro like anxious little creatures.
Like they said in the Matrix - there is no squirrel.
Stop projecting. It is a waste of time and is nothing but mental masturbation. He is acting the way he is because he is acting the way he is.
I'm not saying to be naive and not keep your eyes open and pay attention. What I am saying is stop trying to analyze and guess what his behavior means and where it is coming from (ie; maybe out of guilt.)
You don't know and you won't know until you know. If you ever do know. Everything else is just guessing.
Keep the focus on you and what you're doing. Don't take your eye of the ball - which is YOUR life and your happiness.
This is a slippery point you're standing on. Often people get sucked back in due to what we perceive as positive movement. It happened to me a bunch of times. We tend to take our aim and direction we are moving and we turn it toward them. Don't do this. Keep yourself on the same trajectory you have been moving.
What you have been doing for you has had a direct impact on what you are seeing now. Don't stop doing it. Don't split your focus now. Keep it on you and off of him.
I know, easier said than done.
But done it can be. <-- said in the voice of Master Yoda
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