I cant separate anymroe the A and the lies and the cruelty etc etc. I think it all became one "grey mass" in my head still causing so much hurt.
Ali, I hear you. I know love/relationships is a learning thing. I know I would have done things differently (in my past) if I was aware of all the things I am aware now. Has he learnt his lessons? I honestly dont know.
Dear Lotus, things are not the same. Things are much better. Some people over the weekend commented to me how we looked so cool and happy together. It's just that "my insides" are a little slow and need time, a lot of time...
What you described, sounds... familiar. Having that thought is sad. I know I will be the same way. It is exactly what concerns me. K
