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[john28]

I want to thank all of you for offering your differing opinions. Really, it helps to see both sides. In fact, I think both of you are right.

FaithnAK - you said you'd give half your c*ck to be in my sitch. I've read lots of other sitch here on this board. Looking at mine, I see now I've got it pretty easy compared to others. Sure, I've got a manipulating W, but she is still working WITH me on a lot of things.

I'm a very detailed list kind of guy. Mostly because I suffer from ADD. I think it is important to list my successes and failures:

Success
- Going to Retrouvaille in one week
- W admitted that there is small hope for our M
- W admitted in a perfect world, we'd be together
- Small physical affection, kisses/hugs
- When not initiating contact for several days, W pursues heavily and upset while doing so
- W still initiates ILY
- W still going to MC to "learn how to coparent" but not work on M
- MC is a pro-marriage counselor and W likes her. MC also comments "Whatever it takes to get her in the door"

Failures
- Not sticking with any plan for any amount of time.
- Failure to follow through with a plan
- W is still able to "lure" me back into R talk and I backslide into it
- W is still on D path agenda, seeing mediator for consultation 9/2/10
- I have not fully detached
- I say ILY first sometimes
- I break emotionally in front of W still
- Still fall into old behaviors when being confronted by W with "problems" in our R instead of validating and/or using new tactics
- More of the same




PLEASE PLEASE add to this list.