Thanks CG, W sent a text asking if we should tell the kids? I sent one back telling her not right now, when they stay with me I will have a talk with them about the dog. There turtle died last week and with everything else going on this will just be too much for them to handle(last sentence i did not text) she just sent another text, U going to be ok today? I said yes, thank you. then she sends of you need a shoulder to cry on, im here. I said I appreciate it, I will be fine.
Thanks Pin, I think by W not responding she probably or maybe not upset I didnt take her offer, As I see it would have been needy of me to do so. Cant seem needy right now, big boy boxers are on!!!!
dsh... I'm sorry. I had to put my cat down at the beginning of the month. Probably the hardest thing I have ever done. In a way, worse than the D, really. She was totally innocent, and had no second chance coming. Still hurts to think about it.
The new kittens I got last weekend are doing their best to get into my heart, though.
It was tough, I started to get teary but I kept it in. W offered a shoulder, pooey told her I will be fine. Kept the kids for a while, W was running late so I took them to McD's and let them have fun. W texted me she was at the gym told her we were still at McD's. SHe said I will come there. She showed up and sat across from me. She was more upbeat than me, obviously I had just put my oldest pet down 3 hours earlier so the PMA and Cary Grant attitude was absent. She could tell I was not very talkative. SHe asked me if I broke down I said nope. She then asked if i was with her during the procedure I said yes, and you didnt lose it, nope.
I was a bit cold D fell asleep in my lap at McD's when I wasnt looking the W took a pic of her asleep in my lap and texted it to me. I smiled and said thank you. We all walked out and S kept saying he wanted to go home with daddy, I told him he could spend the night with daddy this weekend. I strapped sleeping D in and then S. S I love you daddy and gave me a big hug. I told W Cya, and walked over to my truck and left.
Tough day today, wasnt as cheery in front of W, if I tried to be i think it would have come off too fake, she knows how I feel about the dogs and it would have looked funny. She did get on my FB page from her phone while we were at McD's and I had a funny quote on there "Gator needs his GAT". she asked who Gator was I just started to laugh and said you wouldnt get it. She then asked some more and I simply said its a quote from a movie. Then she left it alone.
Sorry about your dog, dsh. I had a siberian husky with cancer and had to put him down too. I kept hoping we could make it to his 10th birthday, but he was in terrible shape. There comes a time when there just isn't any other choice. It is so sad.
Of course you were not cheery! Don't worry about it! Beside, you are right, faking is the last thing you want to do in any case. Some days real life take precedence.
I took myself to IHOP for breakfast after, and had all the cholesterol they could fit on a plate. Actually, I think it took two plates. Took the day off work, went golfing with S20. It was good distraction.
Spending time with my kids definately took the itch off a bit. I am moving into my own place tomorrow, which will be good for me and the kids. Our first hearing is a week from tomorrow, so we will keep preparing for that "special" day. Again nothing seems to be phasing the W, she contacts me less on days where she seems busy with work, and when she is just with the kids or on weekends she seems to be reaching more. BZut I need a 2x4 when I start thinking like that, D is pending and it is what it is.
Got a text this am from W asking if the kids insurance is in place yet, like I said her memory lately sux, she knew it wasnt yet because I had to pay 300 bucks to go to get those damn shots for the dog bite. In any case I told her I was still waiting for approval from Cigna. I told her this about the approval, then asked if kidsor ok? she simply replied ""yeah". I will not reply to that, she answered my question, time to start moving peeps!!!! I might be off for a few days until my internet is hooked up at the new place, I will update and check on John(I know) when I get a chance, keep fighting the fight!!!
