Courts, I have followed your sitch on and off for th past year. Time and again you lose your resolve at the slightest sign from H that he will come home.
Quite frankly, I do not understand why you would even consider taking him back.
But you don't stand a snowball's chance in hell of getting to a point where you can even consider it if you don't smarten up and follow the excellent advice you receive here.
If you love somebody, set them free. http://tinyurl.com/2empx2g