I want to be part of the group...

[Jstar]

week is zooming by. i've had h's truck after work all this week, it feels so good to be able to drive and do stuff.

tonight we went to have an appetizer at chili's, me and the 2 kids, they are just so awesome, had to get up 3 times for potty breaks...everyone just adores them when we are out.

we walked over to phone co to see if my phone has been released so if i can use it witha cheap service, it is.

then we went to bookstore, read some books, and then got some frozen yogurt, that's where it all happened...

my little babies are just THE BEST. i'm out with a 3yr old and 6 month old, comfortable, living life, these kids started to crack each other up, the whole yogurt parlour was watching and listening, coming up to them saying how beautiful they are and how precious their laughs are, SO TRUE. we left to head home.

they are both crashed out.

i miss who my h could have been, i long to be touched, been probably a year or longer, i 'm not able to think of myself with someone else...yet, but sort of feeling like i could go out just to dance for alittle bit. who knows if i'd go through with it, but i have thought about it.

i still have some baby weight to take off, but i'm just wanting to have some fun, today we certainly did. ironically we were just walking distance from h's work, and i didn't even bat an eye, we just did our own thing.