Still trying to find my way

[Mystik]

In the middle of my vacation right now, H is very often on my mind. Our first day here DS said he needed to call his Daddy when he got to the ocean so he tried, but the reception stinks and the call didn't connect. So later that night H texted to ask if DS was still up, I had DS call him. They talked a bit, DS tried to get H to talk to me but we both declined so he ended the call. I explained to DS that right now I don't need to talk to Daddy so please don't try to have me talk to him on the phone, if I need to talk to Daddy I would call him myself and DS was fine with that. H has not been mentioned by me or DS since Monday evening. It is now Wednesday evening.

Had a dream about H last night. We were in a hotel room, apparently we were having an affair. He was wearing a dress shirt covered in dots and a hideous yellow pinstriped tie. He told me that his marriage was no fun, that she had hundreds of affairs on him in the two weeks prior and he wanted to end it. I knew he was talking about Whore, and that he was saying he wanted to leave her to return to me. Then I woke up.

Thoughts on H in the next post.