TG I certainly respect the time you're taking, your approach, and your endurance. And I appreciate the time you, and others, are taking to help me here. I certainly have a lot to think about, and am still open to suggestions and thoughts.
If I hadn't found this site, the DB book, nearly 8 months ago I truly think I'd have driven myself insane by now. I was/would have done everything to destroy what was left of my marriage and myself. THAT, I do know. It was never in my instinct to withdraw. And as you said TG, it is funny in hindsight how you learn what you do in time, for a reason, in hindsight.
Peace and thanks to you all.
M--14 years T--20 years, HS sweethearts dday #1--2002 EA dday #2--2005 bar sl*t dday #3/4--Feb 2010 texting/cell/physical/who knows what Shortly after found out he had been injecting steroids for 2 years