My New LBS Reality

[irishblessings]

Thanks all for your support and your perspective. I hope you know how much I appreciate your time and thoughtfulness.
H
Had dinner with oldest D and S. They are amazing. They are like "you need to get mad" "you need to get pissed off" - "we are" / and they were like - "if you take him back right now we will be so angry" - I promised them that if H came to the door today there would be A LOT of work that would need to be done before he would be coming home. They were relieved. They have been through a lot over the past few years especially - I told them that I do and have always loved their dad. That this time of hurtful decisions on his part would never erase all the years of good decisions. They said that they missed the old dad - the one who would play loud funky music when cleaning the house or making waffles - but that this person who he has become is not that same man. I asked them to understand that I needed to be away from him for a while. They understood.

H emailed me and asked me if I had made plans with the kids for the long weekend - wanted to know before he contacted them to see if he can get together with them. I did not respond. Each of the three kids have different plans at different times and the bottom line is they know where I'll be - and that will be home for them. I do not want to respond to him right now. I need healing space.

Thanks folks for your patience with me and my backsliding! I'm forever grateful!