You are still very new to this. You will become more immune to his behaviour as time goes by and as you detach. It is hard at first. Very hard. We have all been there and know how you feel.
You may feel like you are standing in the ruins but use those ruins to start building a life for NCU. This crisis allows you the time and space to tune into yourself. Do you have any unrealized dreams or goals? Any unfinished projects or hobbies you have always wanted to pursue?
You are right that we pour so much of ourselves into being part of a couple and into the daily "living" that we literally lose ourselves. Here is your chance to find rediscover NCU.
It may sound harsh but if any of our spouses had died instead of walking away we would have to continue living and enjoying life after we finished mourning. Our lives do not have to become smaller because they walk away. They can become bigger and better. We can accept that life and marriage can be very fragile things at times and determine that we will still manage to squeeze every drop of joy out of life despite the way things presently are. That is a great challenge to self and I am sure that we all can meet it.
