Thanks SA. I get what you are saying but I guess realistically with contact I feel impatient. I see that we get along. It's as if we are skirting around this issue. I feel I'm in a kind of limbo cos we have this whole history; I'm not a stranger or a friend or a partner but a little bit of them all. I'm a stranger cos we are polite and careful around each other, especially at arrival and departure times. I'm a friend when we share information about work, when we laugh and when we know what coffee to order each other but there are aspects of his life that I don't question and parts of our relationship that we don't address. We are partners when we make decisions and when we discuss our children but that's all. Mostly we are strangers embarking on a new friendship.
I know he cares for me more than a stranger. Friendship is two way and while this has improved it's still mostly me that does the work. I just feel that while I sit with hope and don't pressure him we'll still be in the same position in another year!
