when I told her that I was falling in love with someone else the hurt in her eyes nearly killed me. The A was only an EA, but the people on the post tell me that it does not matter if it was an EA or PA it is still an A. She left me for 2 days then came back. We slept in separate rooms for about two weeks then we sort of reconciled without verbally apologizing.
When I broke it off with the OM I attempted to make good by spending $$ on her. The sad part is that the OM's name use to come "if my W leaves me I always have plan B" it was sort od a standing joke (so I thought) between the two of us. She event use to bring it up. It was never out of malice just humor. But I was too dense to realize that I was hurting her. She internalized everything and never said anything to me.
I blame only myself for the situation that I am in. My W only exercised what she thought was best for her. I am not angry at her, but I am angry at myself for giving her reasons to leave and not giving her the love, security, and respect to stay.
