Today I am sick of being patient. Today I feel like saying, "This situation does not suit me."
I am not good at no expectations.
I sense that H is testing the waters and the comment about him never being good enough was to say he was wondering if we could ever move on from the past. I'm not sure either but I'm prepared to test it. It's like there's an elephant in the room that neither of us are mentioning. And where is ow? She is still around but I think she's a security blanket. He can't be seeing her too often as he's had a really busy schedule which has included 4 weekends in a row either away or with our D.
The weekly dinners are comfortable. While I want D to be happy and have a better R with her dad it once again means that I am doing the work. I will wait until the school holidays and see if he invites D to have dinner at his place.
No contact means no expectation. Contact increases expectation!
