Lola

It looks like you have done some real reflection here.

Do what you need to do to bring your self some peace with him.

It has been a long struggle.

Part of the process is to look at the M and really determine if it is worth saving.

I feel you are doing that.

I also feel there is a lot of anger coming through which is part of the healing process.

If you feel you must do this now then do it.

Then move forward.

My goal is to some day be the person my dog thinks I am