Don't expect anything from him. You no longer exist in his eyes.
Gosh that is harsh but probably very true. Btw, he never did text me back yesterday. I feel like a fool reaching out to him, telling him I don't want this D, that I think it's a mistake, that I want him to be happy and if that means not with me, then I respect that although I don't agree with it. Is it good or bad that I wrote him that?
And now he's blanking me. Why?
It's funny. You spend all these years with someone and then it's gone. Like it never happened. I'm wondering when he cut me out so much? Did it happen a long time ago or was this a recent revelation? I don't think I will ever love anyone like that again. I think a huge part of my faith in love is broken. I do not ever want to marry again, to give so much of myself like that again just so the other person can call it a "piece of paper." I cannot fathom "dating." Last night I was journaling in my apartment and crying my eyes out thinking all of this is my fault. That if I had tried more or not left or been a better W, cooked more, been more of a homebody that he wouldn't want a D. I feel very inadequate as a woman. I know that sounds strange but I feel less than. pretty bad Is there any way to find out if he's seeing someone when we don't live together?
