Send her something that is relevant to her that you noticed. "just saw this article and thought of you." just use it sparingly.
She's watching. That's why some mystery is OK, for you I wouldn't be going out to cougar bars or dancing. Revive or start a hobby you have always wanted to try. Become more interesting.
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.
