I thought totally dark because she stated in her litany of reasons for leaving was that I was controlling her and it appeared to be the one strategy that was working.
Why do you say she is watching me? I think I have rid myself of any negative feeling regarding her leaving and I am working on GAL (though I do not know what my true passion is yet). Admittedly I am not a patient man however all of the emails that I have sent her have been positive.
I just don't know what the proper balance is here to attract and not push away. Do I send her a weekly "hello I hope all is well with you" email and leave it at that? Maybe bring up a little something humorous that happened that day? In my crazy mindset and situation it is difficult getting back to the real me.
I guess I need to review my goals and set plans to them so that I have a better strategy and not so rudderless.
