Scared as Hell

[desperate1992]

I think my big wake up call came today. I am trying to make the absolute best decision for the kids (and so is he) about how long to play to charade. He wants to stay in the house till the kids are 18, I'm not sure if I can and I expressed that to him. I told him I am going to try and he said "whatever works for you."

I asked him how is he able to seem happy when this is such a difficult time. His response? I just don't think about it. WOW! It was then I decided I had to really let him go and do what he needs to. How can you not think about this? And it's that stone cold thought process that has weaved throughout our marriage that has been the 1/2 of the contributing factor to our demise. I always felt nuts and crazy. now I'm feeling better about him leaving in 3 years and that will allow me to get a better job (hopefully!), or education. Wish me peace and strength for my kids that I am doing the right thing now and in the future.