Newer Game- Moving Forward

[steady]

CD, I've read you're last few posts and it brings back fond memories of myself not that long ago.

I was told confusion is good - it's your mind working out that solution you need. Don't fight it, don't analyze it, don't freak out on yourself because of it. Your mind is now assimilating all that data which seems contradictory. It's going to push them together and pop you into a new level of awareness.

You are in a natural process that is unfolding. You are exactly where you need to be. What you are seeing as conflicting 'advice' isn't conflicting at all - but you won't see that until you get to the other side of the precipice that is before you.

Your confusion is your attempt to hold onto what you are seeing, reading, feeling, doing. You are trying to put together a puzzle where the pieces actually change shape as things unfold. You can't put the puzzle pieces together - life will do that for you. Just trust it.

We all come here to save our M. We all work on ourselves to save our M. We come to believe we are working on ourselves for ourselves and not our M. Then we realize we are working on ourselves for our M and have fooled ourselves into thinking it was otherwise. Then we get to the point where we truly are working on ourselves to save ourselves.

Every ounce of work to improve ourselves, no matter the reason for doing it, count.

When you realize you are still attached, and you unmask the fact you are still working on yourself to save your M and not to save yourself, you run out of gas. Everything seems to come to a dead stop. The 'what's the point' mindset creeps in. Depression, hopelessness, reminiscing about our mistakes, taking the blame for the destruction of the R, etc... show their ugly faces.

Now comes the separation of the wheat from the chaff. What are you going to do? You may lay down for a while feeling beaten and defeated. You may not. I've seen a lot of people leave this place at this point. They just give up.

But I know you are one of those people who will stand up, wipe the dust off your clothes and move forward. Don't get frozen in the spot you are standing.

It WILL PASS.