Maybe I'm afraid there will ALWAYS be SOME doubt. And that I'll be paralyzed by that. Maybe I'm just overreacting to the shock of my own feelings and need to just step back for a bit and let myself feel it, accept it.
I honestly don't think my H realizes how far I have gone. I guess that's my fault for not really showing him. As I mentioned, I'm surprised even myself. It's so very hard to be honest with myself about how I feel about my M, 7 months into this.
How do MLC spouses tend to react when the LBS is finally fed up? I suspect my H would be shocked if I filed, but would sit back and play the role of the victim while it all "happened" to him.
Thank you again.
M--14 years T--20 years, HS sweethearts dday #1--2002 EA dday #2--2005 bar sl*t dday #3/4--Feb 2010 texting/cell/physical/who knows what Shortly after found out he had been injecting steroids for 2 years
