Stitching together a new quilt

[FindingMyVoice]

I thought it was a pivotal moment when your H was explaining the problems with lilacs and you said 'I want one anyway'.

LOL! You're right! Up til then I probably would have let myself get sucked into defending, explaining why I should be 'allowed' to get one; proving to him that I wasn't a bad person for wanting one; 'showing' him the error of his thinking. Yeesh! And it would never work anyways! It just felt so good to just say 'I want one anyway!'. And even better, it worked!

I'll bet your H is happier getting those lilacs for you than he would have been talking you out of them.

LOL again! You got that right!

I love lilacs too. One reason I rented this apartment is the big lilac bush outside my door. Their flowering season is very brief each year, but there is nothing else like the fragrance of lilacs.

That sounds lovely - so nice to look forward to after a cold winter. What color are they?

I've been a bit frustrated that I haven't progressed as quickly as I thought I would in rebuilding my life. I'm getting there though. I think I underestimated how profoundly living with emotional abuse affected me.

I'm very sorry to hear of your frustration and of how long-lasting its effects have been. My heart really goes out to you and so wish you wouldn't have had to experience such hurt. How many years were you with your XH Dudess? And, do you have a good support system? Friends, family, a therapist etc? I'm glad to hear you still feel you're making some progress, albeit slower than you'd hoped. I'm happy to listen/read too, if you'd like another ear. I think sometimes we can 'release' things more easily in our writing, than we can verbally.

Well I'm sorry to say I'd better go. I have to pack for a short trip I'm taking - family funeral unfortunately - but I'll be back in a couple days. Please do write back, I'd like to extend my support to you too, as you continue to work at rebuilding your life. Take care, FMV.