Also TG you asked what is keeping me...I'm not sure anything is. Maybe that's why I'm asking these questions. The ONLY things remotely stopping me are 1) my marriage vows and 2) distant memories of a man I really liked AND loved, who no longer exists.
M--14 years T--20 years, HS sweethearts dday #1--2002 EA dday #2--2005 bar sl*t dday #3/4--Feb 2010 texting/cell/physical/who knows what Shortly after found out he had been injecting steroids for 2 years