I don't know what to say. You're analysis is dead on. I appreciate the guiding questions. I need to spend some time looking for those answers.
I don't want to be a martyr. I don't want to be a victim. I have wanted to serve my M and my family and my H. I was neglected as a child and so I overcompensated as a wife/mother and I've learned that by doing this I have been controlling. I am trying to learn new ways.
I want to be a good, pure, kind, faithful, loving woman. I want to enhance the lives of my family and friends. I don't want to be a burden to anyone. I want to share my life with someone who loves me.
I've got more to think about..
M-48/XH-48 M=25/T=28 years Ds-24,22/S-18 D - 3/11 A Day at a Time