I had to own up to my own things - behaviors he perceived as disrespectful or destructive.
You made these changes for H and now he has changed the game on you.
Not good enough for him.
You know why?
Because you are not the problem Irish.
Stop blaming yourself for this.
Your M failing.
And not being good enough for H.
Good for you that you made changes.
Are they really changes for you?
Now
Originally Posted By: Irish
I have NO regrets about those changes and I feel good about the sacrifices I made to stay in my M.
Why are you the sacrificial lamb?
Why is this all for him and the M?
As a fellow Catholic I am going to challenge you on your belief here.
I know what we learn.
Supplication, judgement, guilt, sacrifice for your M.
It does not excuse us from our obligation to ourselves.
Do not use your religious faith as a crutch for why you are standing.
It allows you to be the victim of the M or a martyr.
I want to know Irish. WHO IS IRISH?
Not the Catholic mother, the long suffering W, the victim of a serial adulterer.
Be a witness to yourself.
Be a witness to who you are.
Strength and self love is essential to your spiritual growth.
Your path through this Irish is not through H.
Your answers do not reside in him.
They are inside you.
Follow your fear down to where it is born.
Your fear is what happens.
Your sadness, your self doubt, your questioning- all are "what" happens to you.
Why?
That is the question. Why do you feel this way?
Why do you give your self worth to H?
There is a woman in there that was overshadowed by the burdens of her H and her children, buried by her labors and commitments long ago, covered over by the earth she sowed to grow her family ...
Find her Irish.
My goal is to some day be the person my dog thinks I am
